The process of reinvention is not easy. Towards the end of 2023, I knew I had to change something because I did not want to enter a new year and continue being in the same place as in previous years. I dreaded it. Being in the same place seemed so scary and stagnant. I went to India and I did 500hrs multi-style yoga teacher training. It was intense, it was character building, it was energizing. I stayed in Rishikesh for nine weeks. I love yoga and I wanted to deepen my practice but to be honest, the main reason why I decided to go to India was to get a mental reset, expand my headspace, get more clarity, fuel curiosity and passion for life.

I really wanted to reinvent myself, find a way to break the chains of 9-5, achieve freedom of time. But I could not motivate myself to take any decisive steps to escape the shackles of 9-5. When I came back from India this February I was sad and nostalgic. I was experiencing a culture shock back in my home country – in England. People here seemed so guarded in comparison to Indian people. No random conversations with strangers in the streets and cafes back in the UK. No more spontaneous ride bikes. I was energized and full of ideas but I missed everything about India. I fell in love with India – the music, the weather, the food, spirituality, mysterious and mesmerizing rituals, the Himalayas, the Holy Ganga, and the people with wise, deep eyes. I would cook dinner in my kitchen in the UK and reminisce about onion masala dosa, masala chai, Ganga Aarti, kirtans and the sounds of tabla. Now, I can’t stop thinking about all the amazing places in India I would love to visit. I would love to go to Varanasi, Jaipur, Rajasthan, Kerala, Gokarna (Karnataka). I would love to volunteer for at least three months in Parmarth Niketan ashram in Rishikesh. I would love to be able to travel India for at least 5 months. This new goal is a new found fuel for me. It gives me motivation for action, it inspires courage in me and helps me with self discipline. I think that the reason why I had struggled with procrastination was because I did not know what makes me truly happy. I knew that dancing, yoga and traveling makes me happy but it is traveling INDIA and experiencing its wonders that makes me blissfully or even ecstatically happy. India is soul stirring and soul nourishing. Indian people are fantastic – friendly, hospitable and spontaneous. India is marinated in spiritual wisdom, overall happiness, breathtakingly beautiful nature, vibrancy of the streets and aromas of the food. I keep dreaming about India all the time.

If you have a dream but struggle to work towards it…you have to find your real passion, your fire, your fuel. For me it is India, for you it might be something completely different. But you have to find it. My journey of self-reinvention has just begun. I am still in 9-5. Will I escape the shackles? This blog is going to be a record of my attempts.